What a Life!

Okay, I have soooo much I would love to rant and rave about today.  I mean I want to scream at the top of my lungs from the roof of my house.  " I sound my barbaric YAWP over the rooftops of the world" Walt Whitman.  That being said I am going to be refrained for now.  It has been nearly six months without a job and nothing on the horizon yet, but I am not going to let it define me anymore.  I have refused to let it win.  I understand and better yet believe in a power that holds ultimate authority and control, and he knows what lies ahead.  However he only does so much, I have to do my own digging and crawling and wading in the muck and mud that perverbially is the job market.  I am applying and seeking a job consistently everyday and will not give up.  I only wish it was in my time.  That's the problem I'm choosing to discuss today. Our selfish concept of time.  "Time is fleeting" I believe is a well known proverb.  I like to put it in the way LL Cool J did in Deep Blue Sea " An second can seem like and hour when your holding a scalding hot pot, and an hour can see like a second when you're holding a hot woman."  Theory of relativity has never been explained more precise.  Einstein is even saying "duh, that's how I should have explained it, forget equations!"  

Anyhow, time is not ever going to stop.  It does however "last longer" when you truly relish something.  I am spending more time than I have ever got to spend with my children.  This would not have happened if I did not get laid off.  I relish these times and will never forget them.  Thirty years from now I will look back on these days with such fondness and realize that I should have appreciated them instead of wasted a lot of them worried and stressed.  So I press on with the notion to breath in and out and take this as an opportunity to live a better life and love more than I have been.  I thank you for letting me vent and now it's time to move on.